2010年5月1日星期六

明陣後記 (2) 袋上沾了傷心痛悔的淚 痕 1 MAY 2010

為什么去球場?因太太未去過明陣,又想感受一下是怎樣的,便以此代之。


今回12點入小西灣運動球場安靜,預備30分鐘安靜時間,初時看見有喜鵲,
太太給雀烏吸引行去了一號月台,
而我去了東北角的草地躺卧,太陽的熱力是熾熱,光照在我面上,也不能直望太陽,只聽聽鳥的叫聲,有喜鵲、麻雀與鴿,亦有鷹在天飛著,迎向太陽,牠又與飛機相遇,太陽的光太猛了,竟化作肉眼不能見的彩環。

不久便上了16號月台與太太相遇,看見球場外的另一個世界,有藍天、海、移动的雲、垂釣的人,是嶄新的美景。(我体會了站在不同國度去看人生,去活出人生,這道路是充滿了神的美意。)

不久大家相討把安靜時間延了一小時,我便在月台16坐,她繼續在月台上行,各自面對自己。16號月台射燈上有雀鳥的巢,有一隻喜鵲在架上擔著草行向雀巢。而我剛才卧著的地方有麻雀羣.....。不久已過了一小時,便沿著16號月台往45號進發,在月台外又看見很多帆船,又發現了新的公園、而月台內有鷹飛過的倒影。

到40號月號月台看見太太。又延長了留在月台上的時間。太太在月台上回顧了自己的人生有很深的反省,要求分享時間,她私人的事不便公開。這裏是我們心中的明陣,她要我給她人生中的答案,我說是要有在神等候禱告的時間,(這裏/這个時間正如明陣的中心點),不能把問題帶走,我分享了前天密室禱告中的遭遇,並道出關鍵在乎神除去罪,勉力改正不把罪帶到神面前,要每天更新的。便和她一同禱告,解除心中的結,她終於肯答應開聲禱告,是留淚傷心痛悔的禱告那種,我們輪流禱告,禱告時,我感到前方有光,有強風不斷從前方猛烈吹來,這經歷是嶄新的,禱告畢,眼鏡上沾滿了細小的水點。而太太的袋上有水跡,估計她喊了半小時。在运動場留了共2小時。太太與神的關係進深一層。她認為球場安靜/禱告/反思的時間很重要,並會每星期都騰空些時間來這裏。

我們去了新開發的公園,看蝴蝶、鷹、樹木的倒影。午餐後、看蜜蜂、帆船、藍天與鷹。並找到一条新路上山(龍躍徑)又行了2小時,沿路盡都美好....。

山徑上拾了一條蘆葦草,我便唱著妹妹送給的僅余記憶中的兩句歌詞:
「壓傷的蘆葦衪不折斷,將殘燈火衪不吹滅」(賽42.3; 太12.20)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TMZwtYa-eYg
是你應許 (主唱:鄧婉玲 曲詞: 馮鑑邦)


壓傷的蘆葦,祂不折斷;那將殘的燈火,祂不會吹滅。
尋求你憐恤我的軟弱,誰願無力走過這生?
盼救主垂聽心中困倦,現實壓迫中裝出歡笑。
旁人自顧,沉溺虛空宴樂,誰安慰念記?

耶穌顧念我 求在你懷內
醫好我的創傷 潔淨我罪
你捨身拯救我生命 全能主應許
耶穌顧念我 求被你陶造
一生裡緊靠倚 再沒有畏懼
賜犧牲的愛與醫治 這是你應許

3 則留言:

  1. As usual, we are leading a very busy life without a good stop for quiet time like walking into a labyrinth, losing the sense of direction, purpose and have no idea where we are going to. I appreciate very much how you enjoy the quiet time with your wife along the harbour front in the presence of the God, sharing the most intimate quiet time together with tears in love as an instance in life. I would like to follow your example in enjoying the beauty and peace of life in God.

    Because we are too occupied with our own work agenda or other engagement without a clear purpose, we waste lots of great opportunities to enjoy what a beautiful world that the Lord has provided for us to live in. We could easily spend time for entertainment, TV, computer games, shopping, gossiping, body-building etc. but we could not find time for quiet session with the Creator God and family. Sometimes, we may even log in complaint for our life style and quality which is below our expectation and desire.

    Controversially however, we should have nothing to complain our life if we have travelled around Middle East where there are continuous damages and injuries as the result of the brutal wars lasting for years among the countries in hatred. We are also blessed so much as we do not face with all recent catastrophic loss, death and suffering due to the wrath of natural force from earthquake, volcano, tsunami etc.

    We may grumble and feel uncomfortable with our life. But, if we look at it carefully, in fact, we are not that bad. Why not enjoy it fully as provided by the God in His Grace to us at the present moment, which is too precious for us to lose it anyway.

    When I have free time, I like to appreciate the natural environment surrounding me. If we have time in a day, bow up our head and see the sky once more. See how our loving God paints the creative sky masterpiece for us every day, every hour, every minute and every second.

    How much we have missed the beauty of our abundant life? Don’t be foolish and regret anymore as we cannot play back what we have missed out. Take the chance and enjoy the remaining part fully in God’s way, provision and time.

    以 弗 所 書 Ephesians
    5:15 Therefore be very careful how you live – not as unwise but as wise, 5:16 taking advantage of every opportunity, because the days are evil. 5:17 For this reason do not be foolish, but be wise by understanding what the Lord’s will is.

    5:15 你 們 要 謹 慎 行 事 、 不 要 像 愚 昧 人 、 當 像 智 慧 人 .
    5:16 要 愛 惜 光 陰 、 因 為 現 今 的 世 代 邪 惡 。
    5:17 不 要 作 糊 塗 人 、 要 明 白 主 的 旨 意 如 何 。


    Peter

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  2. Thanks for your sharing and encouragement.
    We really need day to day reflection and contemplation to against any temptation so as to stand as a straight right man.

    Arthur HO

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  3. Thank you for sharing with Labyrinth pictures. They are so wonderful to experience what you see and enjoy at that wonderful moment in intimacy with the Lord together. I try to find your spiritual secrets into it ..... They may be like:

    Grassland, playground, blue sky, cloud, park, tree, flowers, mountain, boats, ships, yachts, harbour, footpath, blue ocean, flying eagle, building, door, sign, shadow, bench, shrub, flag, seashore, bees, leaves, falling leaves, walking track, running happy dog, housing estate, road, water, bucket, sun, sunshine, silhouette .....

    From them, we experience not only beauty of nature and our man-made construction, they inspire us the peace, love, joy, grace and hope in Lord with us.

    Appreciate so much for your sharing in pictures. Sometimes, pictures can convey the message much deeper and beyond our limited words.

    I hope I can enjoy this Labyrinth walk when I come to your place in future.

    Peter

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